You see “usually” I don’t do New Years resolutions but I need this in order to motivate my self. Sad but true. “Usually” has gotten me to where I am and honestly, I can do better than this. To know that I can do better than my current standing is depressing. “Usually” is or rather was, was a repetitive mindset that kept me in the same place as the world went forward without me. So in 2011, “usually” will not be in my vocabulary. I can’t afford to be “usual” anymore. Rather let’s get unusual in 2011. I’m sure it will be more fun.
2011 will be an unusual, excellent, life changing, extravagant, glorious, fun filled and many other optimistic-adjectives-that-I-can’t-even-think-of year! This year I will break necks, turn heads, create smiles, shatter disbelief, and do many other things that involve shocking myself and the rest of the world. Life gave me lemons, I’m making pineapple juice suckas! This year I will be bolder. Go, where no man has ever gone before… ha-ha. But in all seriousness, this year I have big plans for myself in the world of Caleb Anthony Foreman.
It’s almost silly to do an organized grocery list of resolutions and I got a bunch load to do but hey! It’s a whole year to do all this junk. 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days… I probably should break it down to a monthly thing to be more organized but whatever… lets cross that bridge when I walk that trail.
First and foremost is my weight. It’s bout time I got this under control. I am only moderately happy with how I look and I know that my level of self worth and self esteem will shoot through the roof if I fixed my image. The problem is, is that I’m even a little happy with how I look. It’s not too appealing to the eye and not even my own most days. No tears but yea, this crap has got to change. This will probably be the biggest and hardest change to do. That’s why it’s number one on my list and needs to happen asap. It’s deeper than wanting a 6-pack and biceps and stuff like that. I’m pretty outgoing with my “kegger” but I know if I wasn’t so worried about my weight, I would talk to more people and be fearless almost when sharing my faith/testimony. I feel like people only see my stomach when they look at me so… stomach… is going toddles. “Usually” I would be comfortable being uncomfortable in my own skin. But 2011 is coming, going to get unusually in shape!
Second will be debt. Like my weight this has gotten out of control and needs to be nipped in the bud. It’s nothing too extreme but and I don’t plan to solve it in this year but I need to be on a definite path on getting out of debt soon. I know for a fact that I am tired of making car payments so that is one thing I need to get paid off this year… my car. I guess the goal is to put together a plan that is idiot proof. I got better things to do with my money like blessing others in need! “Usually” I wouldn’t care and I would just be paycheck to paycheck but I have got to do something different. Debt is depressing me.
Third will be school. I’ve wasted too much time not being in school and it’s about time I went back and actually finished… I want my AA at least. It’s easy and there is no reason other than I am lazy as to why I don’t have it yet. Sacrifice requires discipline and I need that too. School… definitely is happening this year. “Usually” school was on the back burner and I always talked about going to school but 2011 I want to be a student. I miss school.
On to some fun stuff… Fourth will be learning to play the guitar. I want to use a new instrument to worship my God. I’ve spent too much money on the guitars that I have and to not know how to play them, well is a slap in my own face. Learning that… “Usually” they would sit in the corner of my room but I am playing the dust off of them this year.
Last but definitely not even least. Jesus and my relationship with him needs to be taken to a new level. This is definitely the absolute most important but I saved it to give it the most thought. This year I plan to have daily time with the one who created me. He spends 24/7 365 with me and it is really sickening that I only spend maybe 1/4th of a Sunday with him and really getting to know him. I mean I’ve been on this 40 night prayer thing and I really could use that in my daily walk with him. So getting to know my God better is definitely a new years resolution for me. I want to know what he’s like because I'm created to be like him and I think so far I’m failing miserably. So yea. “Usually” my relationship with God was weak. I treated him like the friend that I barely knew and it was good to catch up on old times whenever I ran into him.
Well there you have it. My new years resolution/s. So simple and so hard because this all requires doing what I wouldn’t “usually” do. Of course there are things that I want almost itemized but this will do for now. God bless you all and pray for me.
